Dear Diary,

I'm an eighteen year old guy attending college in florida. I'm closeted and working on enjoying my life. Hopefully one day I can be a teacher but I've still got a lot of learning left to do. This is my outlet, my expression. I'd prefer to not use my real name so call me "G" if you will. Peace, Love, and Hippie Hugs.

— G hello! theme by cissysaurus
02
07

i should stop googling all of my medical problems

i tend to scare myself.

now im worried that my fatty cyst could be cancerous.

02
07

LAST NIGHT I DREAMT OF SOME BAGELS

i fucking love this song

02
07

what the fuck is up with those shoes

i mean really

theyre water ski status

02
07

this song is totally not spanish

what is he doing oh my god 

this is only good because hes sexy.

02
07

watching glee

sue is nutcase but i love her

01
31

Dear Diary,

It was my ‘brothers’ girlfriend, i think. (hes not my biological brother, but we were legally related once..) I was just thinking about it and i think i might have logged into tumblr on her ipad before i made the extra blog on that account and i left it signed in then somewhere along the line i made the extra thing… and she went to the tumblr app an whammo. well what ever.

if people find out— whatever. if they hate me for it— whatever. i dont find it to be a big deal sooo yeah.

i just took a shower and im all cleaned up and ready for history class… hopefully my day stays good.

―G

01
28

Dear Diary,

I’m really in the mood to get irresponsibly drunk with friends and go to the beach. 

all im missing is the friends.

i want to move— make a new name for me. I just cat afford it. I could never convince my parents to send me to school out west… ugh.

this is what i get for being so fucking square

―G

01
28

Dear Diary,

well, i was looking at one of my old blogs and i had used the account to hold another blog (as an add-on blog) with photos of hot naked guys (LOL) but anyways, i think i left it up or something? the main blog had a post saying “everyone, I am gay.” when i saw it i freaked out a little bit. Hopefully it wasn’t someone i know.. i mean really now… but anyways, even if it was, im over it now. 

I’m at a point to where if someone asks me honestly what my orientation is i will tell them but otherwise why does it matter 

i dont get the big fuss over sexuality why does everyone care?

G

01
26

Dear Diary,

im really fucking tired but i dont want to sleep 

i just want to eat avocados all the time

and drink coffee x

―G

01
26

Dear Diary,

Primogeniturethe right, by law or custom, of the firstborn to inherit the entire estate, to the exclusion of younger siblings.

oh my fucking god this. I learned this word today in history class and it explains the relationship between my brother and my dad. he’s like an angel in my dads eyes i dont get it. He has legit bought him like 5 or 6 cars and i have beg to get mine? Im still waiting on it… he could never do wrong to my father. I guess i’ll always be second best, per primogeniture.

I just get tired of it. he’s always better. and now he is having a kid… great! another thing for my father to care more about than me! fantastic! whatever… we’ll see how he likes it when im the one helping him when he’s older.

see, the differencve between me and my brother is: I give a fuck.

but yeah today was ok

―G